Sunday, May 18, 2014

Six Months!

Lilian is 6 months old!

I was chatting with Tarra about motherhood (her sweet girl is almost 1 YEAR!) and we reflected on how time passes differently now that we have a little one. Sometimes the days drag on but all of a sudden 6 months have gone by! It's incredible how quickly time flies when you are watching your child learn something new nearly every day. The rate at which they grow and change reminds me how each day truly is a gift. As adults (really? I still feel like a kid!) we don't change a whole lot day to day physically, intellectually, emotionally...etc., but babies do.

Lilian wakes up ready to play and learn, eat and grow, cry and feel. As her mother, I am the one who will facilitate most of her learning. I was talking to another mommy friend (my VT's, actually) and we decided that, although the time goes quickly, motherhood is a lifelong, emphasis on LOOOONNGG, calling. With just one little baby, you are often tired at the end of the day but not sure why. We often ask ourselves "What did I DO today?" It is a hard transition to make from student/employee to mother. There is really no way to measure your accomplishments or to feel like you are making a difference. That is where the LOOOONNG comes in. Time passes quickly, but the fruits of our labors are only reaped in small moments now and then until we die.

We don't have a big project with a deadline, or quarterly reviews with someone who can tell us what we are doing right and where we could improve. It is a dichotomy of time, passing quickly but lasting a lifetime and beyond. Going fast but never ending. If you're on a train going 100 MPH but the ride never ends, you might as well be standing still. It's a weird feeling, often overwhelming, but full of blessings from a loving Heavenly Father and Mother who know exactly how it feels. It is a comfort to have our earthly parents, siblings, friends, and of course our Heavenly parents, on the same train with us. It is a long calling but definitely not a lonely one.

Robert and I are so grateful to have Lilian in our lives! She is such a joy and a little miracle to watch. She loves pinching faces, jumping, taking baths, her Winnie the Pooh stuffed animal, being tossed in the air, and laughing at Robert. She can roll over from her back to her tummy, pass things between her two hands, put her binkie in her mouth herself, and is working on sitting up on her own. She's happy, vocal, and outgoing with a smile for anyone. We love you, Lilian!